bad week

I have that feeling. The "it's going to be a long, hard week" feeling. I don't know why, but I've been blue all day. Kind of weepy, even. I got a parking ticket, and it made me cry. Usually I just brush them off, no big deal, it's just a parking ticket, right? This time, it reduced me to tears.

I hope I'm wrong, I hope this week gets better. Not that it's really been bad. I think Mother's Day took more out of me than I thought it would. I spent most of yesterday in bed, just because I could. Today I feel weary.

I don't want to wait a full 'nother month to get my surgery over with, to get back to starting TTC again. I'm tired of waiting. I feel like the past six months have been a waste of time.

I filled out the paperwork to file a complaint against my previous doctor. Tomorrow I will fax it to the CA Medical Board, and find out who to send it to at the two insurance companies that covered me under her care. She can't give me back my lost six months. Hopefully she won't be able to take time like this away from someone else.

The ONLY good thing I can take from any of this IF crap is this - hopefully my journey and my experiences will be of help to someone else, even just one person out there. If I can help one person, it helps me a little bit more. It doesn't make any of this okay, but it helps.