baby shopping
At 18W, I finally broke down. It took me a while, and it still made me nervous, but I finally purchased my first item for the baby.
I guess I've been feeling superstitious about it. Like, if I buy something for him, then something horrible will go wrong and I'll be left with this sad momento.
I finally realized, if something does go horribly wrong (God forbid!), I will want a momento. I will pack up a little box of ultrasounds, test strips, journal entries, etc, and keep myself a memory box.
But that isn't why I bought this. I decided, I'm just about halfway there. It's time to let myself relax and enjoy this part of it! I've been really into most of the rest of my pregnancy - maternity clothes, food cravings, using my exhaustion to get out of things I don't want to do. ;-) But in this area, I was just scared.
I purchased the cutest little romper. It's a light blue, more on the green-blue side, but definitely blue. It's a onsie, but shorts, and it has white piping along the collar and sleeves. And in the front, monogrammed just for him, are his initials. Because while we're not sharing the name with everyone at this point, it's common knowledge what his initials will be, as it's a family tradition in DH's family.
It's so cute and tiny! Pulling it out of the box it came in, my heart just got all mushy and I made that "Aw!" sound that mommies make around cute little baby things. I showed DH, and said "He's going to be this little! We're going to get to dress him in this!"
Now that I've bought one thing, I think it will be easier to start getting everything ready for our new arrival.
posted by joyous melancholy at 7:20 PM
5 Comments:
Congratulations on making your first baby purchase! You're definitely right - it's time for you to relax and enjoy this pregnancy. No need to feel superstitious - I have no doubt that there will be nothing but a happy ending for you and DH.
Enjoy shopping! Hopefully you'll be sharing some amazing nursery pics in a few months. You've got a lot to do - so get busy & enjoy!!
Congrats on buying that first must have little item of clothing.
Valerie from I Village
That's a big step! Congratulations on getting there!
Joyous Melancholy, I want to remain anonymous,but I just want to say I really am happy for you, that your ttc dream has finlly come true! Wow, how amazing for you and dh! I though, for one, am one of those ttc, still not pregnant, I found your blog actually, searching through other blogs I'd been following, and looking at the comments, so then linked through that I then found yours, and started reading some of your past post entries, I know therefore that you truly know and still will always understand what it's like ttc for a long time and it's not happening. I've been ttc I can't believe it for almost the past 2 years now, with my boyfriend of almost 8 years now, he's quite a bit older than me, but nevertheless that doesn't matter, as we are truly in love, and I know men of his age who have fathered children for the first time, he's still not that old, but we only want to ttc naturally(although I started using opks a few months ago, and he's aware of that, and fine with that, and I'm keeping track of all my cycle dates on a calendar, and I believe I do ovulate and have a menstrual cycle every month, regularly, and I think his sperm count is okay, but still I haven't gotten pregnant yet, I think it's just unexplained infertility ) and I feel no matter how you're ttc naturally, or with fertility treatment, it still evokes the same feelings of hopelesness, sorrow etc, when it doesn't happen, time after time month after month, or even when trying for years, and it doesn't soften or lessen the blow no matter how you're ttc, when it doesn't happen after tons of trying continuously, I still will persevere,still will be ttc naturally, after almost 2 years of ttc my first child, but I hope it happens soon, I don't know when, I just hope soon already, and i know you understand all this completely, so how long were you ttc total time, till you finally got pregnant, and it finally happened to you, this blessed event. Sorry this is so long, this post, but also i have to ask you, I was following the blog by Melissa, at www. baby-wanted.blogspot.com for like 6 months, and then she posted on Feb 21, 2008, that due to some nasty mean spirited people e-mailing her and commenting to her posts, and saying horrible things to her, when she was having a few bad days, that she was removing it publicly, and sure enough I checked and a few days later it was gone, no new entries and it says you have to have a private invitation to her blog and to contact the author of it, so I've been trying for like 2 weeks to find her e-mail address from that blog, and contact her to somehow get to read her private blog from now on, because I fully support and understyand her and her ttc journey, believe me, I wasn't one of thos vicious, cruel mean, unsopportive people that commented to her, and so therefore, i stll really want to read her blog, I was invested I felt in it too, and in her journey too as well , you know, i noticed a Mellisa commented to you here, on this post i wonder if that is her, I've been looking everywhere for her, so If you know her ,or anybody knows her, can you ask her to possibly post her blog publicly again, cause lots of people I'm sure, me included, still really want to read it, and if she won't post it publicly again then can you e-mail her with her private e-mail address and ask her if I can get that private invitation, to read her blog. And I will continue to read your blog too, Joyous Melancholy, I hope yopu post again soon too, and see this, Sorry it's been such a long post, but I had to post all this. So you can e-mail me too, how long had you been ttc before you finally, blessedly, got pregnant? And also if you can get me Melissa's regular e-mail address, or anyone can, Thank you so much, and please e-mail me as soon as you possibly can at:photron@magma.ca
Hello Anonymous. I'm glad you stopped by. Isn't the internet an amazing place, where we can connect with others who are going through the same thing, without ever having to even see them face to face or even share our names? I'm glad you're getting the support you need. You're absolutely right - it doesn't matter *how* we TTC, the journey can be long and painful however we go about it.
I actually haven't seen Melissa on the boards lately, either. I would be happy to pass along your email address to her, though, and your request to be added to her list of people allowed to see her site. Come to think of it, I'd like to be added to that list as well.
If I may offer a perspective that I gained over my 2-1/2 years of TTC? Making a baby, however we go about it, is the most natural thing in the world. Some times we just need a little help, that's all. And everyone's comfort level varies, so I'm not trying to tell you to jump right into technology to help you out here. And since it's hard to tell tone of voice online, I'll also say I'm not being defensive here, either. =) But the way I see it, if I have a sickness, I'm going to see a doctor. If I have a spiritual crisis, I'll see a spiritual leader. And since I had a crisis in fertility, I saw someone who could help me with that.
Just something to think of. I'd hate for you to think that the "natural" way was your only option, and grow discouraged. Technology can be an amazing thing. It's also not for everyone, and I understand that. I just wanted to offer a way of thinking about it that doesn't occur to some people.
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